I've finally become a substitute teacher! I'm so freaking excited. I mean... considering the fact that I started the application process in July of LAST YEAR, it's about time. Here's the thing though, I'm not sure if teaching is my thing. I'm pretty sure that it's just because I'm scared to death that I'll get eaten alive. I taught a first grade class the other day and it went just fine. Mostly. But then I tell myself that, yeah, of course it went fine... it's first grade. What am I going to do when I get called in and I have to teach middle-schoolers?? It's a scary thought. I have to keep reminding myself that this is what I've wanted to do for a while. Before I changed my major in college, I wanted to be a high-school teacher. This could be a way of getting into that. I'm not a tyrant by any means and I'm so bad at discipline! I'm just going to have to learn how to be harsh when I need to be or these kids are just going to treat me as a joke. I want to be the "cool" substitute that is fun, but I'm just not seeing how to do that and maintain control you know? I just hope that as time goes on, I'll begin to like substitute teaching and not get a freakin anxiety attack everytime I get that phone call.
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